"Why I continued something that I did not like."

It is one of those days that I cannot find a word for how I feel.  I am confused and hopeless and yet, I am thinking.  I watched a documentary that moved me a great deal.  I have always been inspired by Mehrangize Kar the Iranian lawyer and human rights activist and her family.  Today, a part of the film made me think about, us women.  Mehrngiz talks about her experience in prison and says "I was thinking why I continued something that I did not like  Why I did not throw away from my life anything that hurt me.  I wish I threw away everything that could not give me satisfaction.  Anything, a job or friends or family, husband, no difference   because I could not understand we cannot trust life."  She is a strong woman and she realizes this only after prison and struggling with breast cancer.  I think we put up with a lot f things everyday because making a change is so tough.  I have been trying to make a change in my life and it has been so tough.  it is hard to land on something that can make you happy and it is harder to make people understand not to judge you for taking big risks.  I am afraid of failing but I cannot go back....